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If today I could sit down and have tea with You, Jesus, I think at first I wouldn’t know what to say. Maybe I’d just sit in silence, looking at You, because I know that before I open my mouth, You already know what’s in my heart.

I’d want to tell You how tired I feel sometimes, even though I know You already see it. But I’d still need to say it, like a daughter leaning on her Father’s arms.

I’d tell You that there are days when I smile on the outside, but inside I feel like I’m running out of strength. And there are moments when my faith trembles, even though I’m still holding on to You.

I think I’d also give You thanks.

Thank You for every morning when You’ve held me up without me even noticing.

Thank You for forgiving me so many times.

Thank You because even when I don’t understand the path, You never let me go.

And if I were brave enough, I’d ask You:

“Am I doing things right, Lord?”

“Am I enough as a mother, a daughter, a woman, a wife?.

“Can You really use my life, even when I feel so fragile?”

Maybe I would cry a little, but I know You would catch every tear with tenderness. You wouldn’t give me a sermon, You would simply look at me with those healing eyes, and You would tell me what I need most to hear:

“I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

By the time we finished our tea, I might not have all the answers… but I would have peace. That peace only You can give.

And I’d walk away remembering that, even if I cannot see You with my eyes, whenever I feel alone I can close them and know You are there listening to my words, my silence, and even my sighs.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

Matthew 11:28